1月21日 想想神记得什么？

你幼年的恩爱……我都记得。（耶二2）

我爱神是否像昔日一样甘心自发？还是只指望以仁慈对待我？我有没有许多微小的事可以讨他欢心？还是因路不顺遂而唉哼怨叹？你心若忘记了神所看为宝贵的，就不会喜乐。试想主耶稣需要我－－“请给我水喝”，这是多么美妙的事！过去的一个礼拜里，我怎样表示爱他呢？在我的生活中，有没有彰显他的名呢？

神对他子民说：“你现在不再爱我了，但我很记得你爱我的那段日子。”“我记得……你婚姻般的爱情。”当日我怎样撇开一切，表明诚心爱他；如今，我是否仍对他有这不断涌流的爱情？我除了他别无眷恋的日子，是否要在回忆中去追寻？我如今还在那境地，还是懂得怎样去爱他？我是否深深地爱他而不管前途如何？还是在注视自己该得的地位，估计着该摆上多少事奉？假若我想起神纪念我的日子，却发觉他在我心中已不复昔日重要的地位，就叫我羞愧自卑，因为羞愧会带来忧愁，叫我悔改。

祈祷◆主啊，我何等渴望你带领我与你面对面！我的灵渴想着你、你恩典的触动和你圣灵的气息。

January 21 Recall What GOD Remembers

“I remember . . . the kindness of thy youth.” Jeremiah 2:2

Am I as spontaneously kind to God as I used to be, or am I only expecting God to be kind to me? Am I full of the little things that cheer His heart over me, or am I whimpering because things are going hardly with me? There is no joy in the soul that has forgotten what God prizes. It is a great thing to think that Jesus Christ has need of me – “Give Me to drink.” How much kindness have I shown Him this past week? Have I been kind to His reputation in my life?

God is saying to His people – You are not in love with Me now, but I remember the time when you were – “I remember . . . the love of thine espousals.” Am I as full of the extravagance of love to Jesus Christ as I was in the beginning, when I went out of my way to prove my devotion to Him? Does He find me recalling the time when I did not care for anything but Himself? Am I there now, or have I become wise over loving Him? Am I so in love with Him that I take no account of where I go? or am I watching for the respect due to me; weighing how much service I ought to give?

If, as I recall what God remembers about me, I find He is not what He used to be to me, let it produce shame and humiliation, because that shame will bring the godly sorrow that works repentance.