当乌西雅王崩的那年,我见主坐在高高的宝座上。(赛六1)
我们心灵与神的历程,往往是英雄人物式逝去的历程。神一次又一次地把我们的朋友挪开,使他自己可以代替他们的地位,我们却因此失败灰心。就个人经验来说:那年那个替代了神位置的人死了——我是否万念俱灰?病了?颓丧灰心?还是看见了主?
我对神的异象,有赖于我品性的状况。品性决定启示。我若要说“我看见了主”,就必先在品性上有了与神相呼应的成分。在我重生得见神的国以前,所看见的都随我的偏见而定;我需要接受手术,切除外在的事物,也需要内里的洁净。第一是神,第二、第三也是神,直到生命单单面对神,其他人都无关重要。“世上除你还有谁?我的神,只有你。”不断付代价,让神知道你甘愿达成异象。
祈祷◆主啊,我感谢你,因为我发现自己在盼望你再来时深感热切的喜乐!噢,由此我可以在你眼前蒙恩,并且,要让自己的行事为人,与你的伟大救恩更为相称!
July 13 The Price Of Vision
“In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw also the Lord.” Isaiah 6:1
Our soul's history with God is frequently the history of the “passing of the hero.” Over and over again God has to remove our friends in order to bring Himself in their place, and that is where we faint and fail and get discouraged. Take it personally: In the year that the one who stood to me for all that God was, died – I gave up everything? I became ill? I got disheartened? or – I saw the Lord?
My vision of God depends upon the state of my character. Character determines revelation. Before I can say “I saw also the Lord,” there must be something corresponding to God in my character. Until I am born again and begin to see the Kingdom of God, I see along the line of my prejudices only; I need the surgical operation of external events and an internal purification.
It must be God first, God second, and God third, until the life is faced steadily with God and no one else is of any account whatever. “In all the world there is none but thee, my God, there is none but thee.” Keep paying the price. Let God see that you are willing to live up to the vision.